This is not me giving up, this is me letting go.

something i should be excited about…

prom.

i’ve been to 3 other proms, none of them my own. mine is finally coming on friday, and honestly, i’m all prommed out lol. dress problems, money, all this stupid shit. i just wanna be done with high school and not need to worry about finding a new fancy shmancy dress for every fucking prom that i’m invited too. although the last prom i went to in tennessee was the shit… whatever. i still hate this.

for paul

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WHAT PHONE CALL SKANK?

i’ve been listening to this song for like… 3 days straight now

iminitforthethrill:

Before you twist your tongue know there’s no chance at all. came here against my will and my wills tested strong.

this is natural? -_-

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guest listed by Close Your Eyes

holy shit. this week is finally getting better. I love this band, and they’re putting Allie and I on the guest list for Bamboozle on Saturday. so we don’t have to pay. Amazing human beings. GO LISTEN TO THEM!!!!

7. i just had to take 2 out :(

"You talk the talk but can’t seem to spit it. You walk the walk but can’t seem to live it."

The magical number 69

Followers that is lol.

I hate this…

Being the baby of all my friends. I can’t go out and do shit at any actual places. It’s always shows, or house parties. The day I turn 18 I’m going club hopping. Fuck this legal age bullshit. It’s bringing me down -_-

The story of my septum…

So a little over a year ago now, I decided I wanted another piercing other than my ears, and one that I could hide from my mommadukes. I’d seen a lot of people with this ring in their nose, and thought it didn’t look so great, but its all I could hide from her. Stupid right? I asked around and found out about this place called big apple, that did piercings, tattoos and only god knows what else without asking for id. I figured why not, they can’t just be handing out licenses to crazed assholes with needles right? Wrong. I went with ny boyfriend and it was the most painful thing I have experienced to date. Whenever someone asks me how much did that hurt, I compare it to being ball tapped or hit right in your tit. We get in the car after, and I’m looking, and that shit was crooked. I couldn’t flip it up, and it hurt too much. I said fuck it, let me wait and see how it feels after a few days. Thursday comes, and it wasn’t much better, it was definitely crooked, and it was a bitch to flip up. So I took it out. The next day was my best friends 18 bday, and her parents got tickets for her and 3 friends to to see a day to remember. My boyfriends best friend was a piercer and he offered to redo it for me. I really didn’t have anything to lose at this point, so I said why the fuck not. So on a bed, with gum numbing gel in my nostril, I let Paul repierce my septum. Again, excruciating pain, but this time it actually looked good. I promptly lost both of the balls that go om the ring on the eat to the show, but I didn’t care, it was finally done. After another week or 2, it healed, and didn’t hurt, and my co worker gave me a smaller 16g ring to switch out the wonky 14g with. It’s been a long time, and my mom never found out, until today. When I was laying down and I guess the sun hit the metal. She freaked, but for once I wasn’t terrified. I’m 4 months away from being a legal adult. I’m getting tattooed, and I’m going to get more piercings. I know she’s upset, but my consolation for her was this, “if I don’t get the stupid shit out of ny system now, where do you think I’ll be in 5 years? I don’t want to grow up resenting you like you did with your parents for jot letting you try new things.” This woman lived in Germany for 2 years when she was my age, and did a lot of things that were frowned upon when she was younger. I’m putting holes in my body in places no one will ever consider to look, so its not as terrible a thing. I know what I’m doing, and I’m not ashamed of any of it. It was a mistake to go where I did to get it done, but I fixed it, and my nose has not fallen off. I love you mom, but this is what I want.

And that is the story of a dumb piercing gone right!

this hurt…

is above and beyond anything i have experienced. i wouldn’t be here if you were still around dad. i wish you were.

"The skin breaks but won’t stay broken. You couldn’t save her but look how strong she’s made you."

my new ball of fluff. so excited to go pick her up!!! i need a name!!

surprise surprise

danny’s surprise party was tonight. i don’t think i’ve laughed that hard in a looooong time. i almost threw up a few times. shit was cray <3